Sunday 29th April 2018…the day I completed my half marathon challenge. Rewind back to Monday 16th April 2018 (one of the inspirations behind my previous blog, Tantrum, Tears and Treatment) and I didn’t even think I would make the start line…I couldn’t even run 2 miles due to a dodgy knee, let alone 6.55 times that distance. I was starting to contemplate a totally different kind of personal challenge as I faced the prospect of having to withdraw from the race and deal with the feelings of failure and letting people down. Fast forward 14 days and physically, I’m feeling a bit sore, but mentally, I’m still feeling elated. I did it! I ran 13.1miles and my knee is now one of the the only things that doesn’t hurt!
At 08.45am I was shivering on the start line, alone but connected to about 6000 other people who were also about to take on the challenge with one common aim in mind…to cross the finish line. As the horn sounded to start the race at 09.00am, I began the long walk to the start line (I was at the back with the sub 2:30 group). Externally, the speakers were playing the theme tune to Chariots of Fire but, internally, the pesky inner critic went into over drive…How on earth did I think I could do this when everyone else was clearly more prepared than I was? How was my knee going to survive the distance? What if I caused an even worse injury? What if I didn’t finish? etc etc. The inner critic got more air time than I would have liked because the approach to the start line was slowed down due to having to dodge the mud and puddles. Then it loomed large, the timer was ticking and, before I knew it, I was over it. This was it…I pressed start on my Fitbit and playlist, gave a last minute wave to my supporters and then I dug deep and started to push forwards. I was about to go well and truly Beyond the C Zone.
I spent 2 hours, 29 minutes and 7 seconds racing myself through the City of Chester and the Cheshire countryside. In my custom made Beyond the C Zone T-Shirt I ran amongst people with their own stories and reasons for taking on the half marathon challenge, many of whom also had them emblazoned on their race attire. One of my favourite items of clothing were some leggings covered in inspirational and motivational words. My favourite became my mantra for the remaining miles:
“She believed she could, so she did.”
The Race Marshalls, those handing out water, live music, and crowds of supporters were AMAZING. Even in what appeared to be the middle of nowhere, people had come out to cheer us on and offer words of encouragement… “you’re well over halfway” gets my vote for the most encouraging statement. I high fived supporters who held out their hands as we ran past and hit the “boost boards” people had made for runners to get a psychological energy surge…I’m 100% convinced that my pace increased every time I touched one. The jelly babies were handed out at just the right time in the final few miles.
There was a comforting rhythm created by the sound of trainers hitting the tarmac and the beautiful scenery when running through the countryside was definitely worth getting up early on a Sunday morning for. But, the race was by no means easy. On two occasions it felt like I’d gone way too far beyond my comfort zone. At mile 10, I began to feel wobbly, I realised how much bits of me were hurting (apart from my knee!) and I was running into unknown territory because 10 miles was as far as I had got in training. At mile 12, I realised that I would have to face ‘the hill’ to get to the finish line. I hadn’t really paid any attention to those who had told me about the hill at the end of the race, but I did when I ran down it during the first mile of the race. It was a tough way to finish. I was tired and my legs hurt. I was so close but the end felt so far away as I ran/walk up what felt like a mountain. When I reached the summit, and turned the corner, everything changed…every step and every bit of effort was absolutely worth it.
The finish line was in sight and the roar of the crowd was immense. There was a sea of smiling faces, people shouting my name, cheering me on as my pace quickened. It was then that I felt a sudden wave of emotion build and I realised I was crying…tears of joy as my right foot went over the finish line and I punched the air in celebration. I’d done it! And, within the time I had aimed for.
Once over the finish line I found myself in the “athlete only area” being handed a medal and some much needed water. Imposter syndrome definitely starts to sneak in whenever the word “athlete” is mentioned at races. But, I have since discovered that the word “athlete” actually comes from the Greek word, “athlon”, meaning “prize”. For me, the prize on Sunday wasn’t the medal (although it’s a nice one!). It was what it told me about myself…running has helped me become physically and emotionally stronger by pushing me beyond my comfort zone and showing me what I’m capable of.
I got a lovely message from someone that expresses this far better than I can:
“…Again you demonstrate how brave and strong you are by pushing through the injury and taking that leap of faith (accompanied by your knee support) to smash today.”
Someone who gets a special mention is my Dad as I certainly couldn’t have completed the half marathon challenge without his help in sorting out my dodgy knee.
So, that’s another of my 40 challenges ticked off the list. Going Beyond the C Zone on this occasion has introduced me to new people who have provided inspiration along the way, it has renewed my love of running, and it has increased my belief in myself and what I’m capable of. I thought I could run 13.1 miles, and I did.